an update of my life...
01:34 a.m. Sunday, May 9, 2004
since some people have been unable to read about my life lately due to me deciding to make my livejournal friends only, i shall make a quick update on what is going on in the life of kimi. hehehe! my freshman year at the university of the pacific is coming to an end. i've enjoyed it so much, mostly due to the amazing people that i've become close friends with. i have decided to change my major from music management to art because i have come to realize how much i love art and how much i hate business classes. heh. my mentor ii group created a pilot program that provides a shuttle bus system to elementary schools in stockton to after school programs in the area. as a result, we won a competition against the freshman class and each received 100 dollars, a plaque, and an automatic "a" in the class. that was incredibly exciting, as well as scary as hell. i had to make an 8 minute speech in front of our freshman class. ick! it was all well worth it though. as far as my love life is concerned, i am dating a guy named james. he's really great, and he's from orange county. he's tall (6'5"!!) and blonde, just the way i like 'em. heh. other than that, nothing much has been happening. the parties are great for the most part, and i love the people here. any questions? email me!!

in just seven days...
09:51 p.m. Wednesday, May 5, 2004
danyell messaged me today, and i'm strongly considering posting here again. we'll see!!

we'll go down forever...
04:37 p.m. Saturday, January 17, 2004
*poke poke* hehehe...

my only friend...
04:35 a.m. Thursday, July 17, 2003
i'm not going to be updating this journal very often from now on. my main journal will now be here because i have a greater degree of control over my entries there. i love this site very much, but at this point, my livejournal is easier to maintain.

unravel me...
04:50 p.m. Monday, July 14, 2003
i had lots pf fun last night! i'm not going to write details here though. i'm feeling kind of depressed and emotional right now cos ricky and i had a talk. i'm glad we had it though for many reasons. i just feel bad. i'm sorry. then, i found out a lot of my friends were at a party, and i didn't get invited. i'll get over that though. i did feel like shit about it. it's a dumb thing to be upset about though i guess. ok...off to cry some more. it feels good though. ps...angelina is on the cover of cosmo...*drools*

girls on film...
03:24 p.m. Sunday, July 13, 2003
hmmmm...i'm feeling a lot better. i got to talk to erich a little about the situation, and things are feeling pretty good at the moment. it's such a hot day. i went outside for just a little while, and i'm already melting. this is why i can't stand summer. anyway, i'm working late tonight. call my cell phone if you need me, but it will probably be on silent...so just leave a message. now it's off to the shower!

ten good reasons that i can't find...
08:29 p.m. Saturday, July 12, 2003
what a piece of shit of a day. the baseball game was actually pretty fun cos i got to sit between zach and nicole. the way home was hell though. i was really hurt by a lot of what emma said to me today, and she made me feel like maybe i should never open my mouth to sing ever again. i really felt like shit. it took everything i had not to start crying right there. then, the one thing i have been looking forward to, rhps, just got cancelled. all this on top of the whole shit with erich is just making me absolutely miserable. i hate this shit. fuck life! i was really starting to fall in love too. god dammit.

a pirate's life for me...
05:22 a.m. Thursday, July 10, 2003
today i went to dinner with sarah and annelise, which was nice. dinner was good, and then we met up with blum, paul, nicole, may, russell, felicia, and emma to see pirates of the caribbean. i enjoyed it, but some of my friends didn't. johhny depp is so hilarious in it, not to mention incredibly hot. he wears this dark black eyeliner! *swoons* i guess my only complaint was that it was kind of long. later we met up with mike and diana, and we decided to hang out at my house. we talked til around 2 ish methinks. that was so much fun too. i got to talk to one of my favourite people after that...you know who you are ;)! now i'm really tired, so au revoir!

where do all the pornstars go...
12:47 p.m. Wednesday, July 9, 2003
i have moved all my pornographic pics to a new album, so if you had the password before, let me know...and we'll work things out. that is all.

it's a beautiful morning...
05:34 a.m. Tuesday, July 8, 2003
hmmmm...today really started around 5 in the afternoon for me. i went to nicole's apartment around 7 ish to see chicago with a bunch of people, but i ended up not going cos as much as i like it, i've seen it a lot already. plus, zach, emma, may, erin, and i wanted to go to target. that was so much fun. we really made a mess of the store though, which is quite bad. we cleaned up after ourselves though. we bought a lot of food mostly. i got a barbie doll cos it was cheap, a bra cos it was cheap, a special present for russell because i just had to when i saw it, and some cream for down there. then, we rented big trouble since zach hadn't seen it, and i had told him it was a good movie. once we got back to nicole's apartment to meet up with the chicago people, there were twice as many in the group as we had started with, and we were being way too noisy. so, we came to my house. hmmm...i think we ended up with blum, diana, nicole, mike, virgile, and zach sitting around and talking after the movie. that was really fun actually. i love my friends! they all left around 2. then i did some stuff, can't remember what exactly. finally, i went online and got to talk to erich, the sweetest person ever. yay! now i'm off to sleep. good night! ha...morning!

i'm coming out...
02:14 a.m. Monday, July 7, 2003
russell called me just as i was waking up, and we made plans with nicole to go out to lunch. then, russell and i hung out at his house for a while before calling diana to go get ice cream. finally, i came home, and a few hours later a bunch of us went over to jack's house. that was cool. jack had to go back to santa cruz early in the morning though, so blum, virgile, scott, and i went back to russell's house to watch the boondock saints, one of the most awesome movies ever. i'm so tired! ah!

i see you shiver with antici...pation...
01:12 a.m. Saturday, July 5, 2003
grrr...i was up all last night cos i just couldn't fall asleep. i finally got some rest around 7 in the morning. i went to nicole's house for the fourth of july, and it was really, really fun. there were lots of my favourite people there, and zach and i got to go swimming in nicole's green pool. you have to check out the pics when i post them. many games were played, and we went up to watch the fireworks. they were really pretty, and i got lots of really cool looking pics. my camera battery is charging right now, so yeah. it'll be like tomorrow or something when i get all this stuff up. john's leaving tomorrow. that sucks cos i'm going to miss him so much. at least he'll be back for like 8 days at the end of summer. i can't believe we're all leaving already. i miss mel and shaun. poo! oh...rhps...i've talked to people, and it seems that next week will work out better for them. plus, it's rocky horror vomit night, which should be exciting anyway. sound good?

here, there, and everywhere...
03:25 a.m. Friday, July 4, 2003
so i went to the hospital today, and i was so tired. i guess that teaches me to stay at someone's house til 5 in the morning. my mum and i went shopping at target later and bought bunches o stuff form my dorm room. we totally lost track of time, so i missed my geetar lesson. that's ok anyway cos i've been so busy that i haven't had much time to practice lately. sarah called me up, and we went to higleys to catch up since she's always so busy now. then, we went over to jack's house where we found diana, martin, may, mike, and blum. they were finishing not another teen movie, and then we watched random tv shows. all in all, it was a pretty funny night. i got home about an hour ago and have been wasting time since. now it's off to bed for me! night!

sex on the beach...
05:14 a.m. Thursday, July 3, 2003
i slept most of the day. i scheduled my surgery for two weeks or so from now. i made plans to meet up with nick after he got off work at midnight. he called a little later, and so i went over to his house with a few people. we swam a little, but since i didn't bring a suit, i just went in my undies. of course, i had to choose to wear a thong that night. argh! that's ok...it was still fun. we jumped off his roof into the pool. it took me forever to do it, but i finally did. some of them smoked pot, and now even i smell like it. god dammit. i hate that smell. got home just about now ish (5). i'm so tired, and i have to be at the hospital in a few hours. hahaha! i'm such a dumbass. oh well...it was worth it. there was much fun had! ps...some guy paid for me to have a paid account status at livejournal, so be sure to check out my new angelina emotion thingies!

don't dream it...be it...
06:55 p.m. Wednesday, July 2, 2003
hey peeps...i really want to go to rocky horror this saturday. anyone else interested? let me know!!!

and i love the pain...
02:21 a.m. Wednesday, July 2, 2003
today was painful, but yeah...i guess it was all worth it. at night, i went out with bunches o people to rocky cola as a sort of "goodbye shaun" party. then, we all went to hang out at blum's house. i love it there cos it's so relaxed. plus, john gave me the best massage ever. oh god it felt good. emma saw naked pictures of me. oo! naughty! hahaha! that was the day. tomorrow i get to find out when i'm having my surgery. woohoo! now i am off to sleep...night!

under my umbrella...
05:05 p.m. Tuesday, July 1, 2003
last night was really just fun and chill. i love nights like that. blum, russell, shaun, nicole, emma, john, and i met at higleys and just hung out. i was slightly disappointed that mike wasn't working that night, but seth actually stopped by for a visit. that was nice, and we got his email address. pascale and sara, my two favourite whores, showed up for a bit. i hadn't seen them for a few weeks, so that was exciting. later, john, emma, shaun, blum, and i came over to my house to watch amelie since shaun and blum had never seen it. it's one of my favourite movies, so it must be watched! john and i shared a chair, and there was much groping (sorry emma! j/k)...tonight we are having a little "goodbye" party for shaun since he's leaving tomorrow. i'm really going to miss him. it's so sad. so now i must get some rest before tonight...au revoir! i'm so excited! (and tired!)

go go tigers!
02:52 p.m. Monday, June 30, 2003
university of the pacific...what a great place. guaranteed internships...average class size is 20 people...6th most beautiful campus in the world...dave brubeck conservatory...school colour is orange...number one pharmaceutical school in the world...get to know professors and counslers personally...great people...check out my entry in my lj for an entry about orientation!

yay!
11:54 p.m. Thursday, June 26, 2003
"Among the songs that might make the cut are 'Hangin' With the Bitches,' which Vig says has 'sort of a Talking Heads funky groove but a lot darker and noisier.' Also in the works is 'Right Between the Eyes,' which he says, 'is more of a full-on rock song that we're pretty chuffed with.'"...hangin' with the bitches is the best song title from an all white band ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay for garbage!

just a little bit...
03:03 p.m. Thursday, June 26, 2003
wow. i think victoria's secret sends me a new catalogue everyday, and dammit! i want! i want! normally, i'd just throw them out cos they are so god damn expensive, but it seems that they're constantly having sales now on things that i want. plus, i've recently become slightly more obsessive about undies and such. i'll probably just break down and buy a bunch of stuff tonight. today is for packing. i have guitar in a bit, but i really need to pack. i'm going to orientation early tomorrow morning, and i'm not even sure what i'm supposed to bring. i'm so afraid that people aren't going to like me, but last night, i read a bunch of blogs from uop people. they all seemed cool and had lots in common with me, so i'm hoping that going there will be the same. it's going to be so hot though. that means i have to shave my legs, and i hate shaving my legs! argh! it takes too damn long! i mean, i can only wear my fishnets once at most. damn. i really should get up and start, but it's so much easier to sit here procrastinating. bleh! la la la...i'm going to copy paste this entry for my lj cos i feel like it. so :-P!!!

i am human...
12:29 a.m. Thursday, June 26, 2003
just for zach, i'm going to start working on a new layout. anyway, today was fun. shaun, erin, jason, nicole, and i went to old town and had dinner at the kitchen. that was fun, and the waitress was cute. i don't know. i didn't think she was as good looking as shaun thought she was, but i guess i'd do her if given the chance. we wandered around for a but cos we were planning on going midnight bowling, but we ended up deciding that people were too tired to do anything. so, we went home. that kind of sucked, but i suppose i was starting to get a headache anyway.

she's not the kind of girl...
12:03 p.m. Wednesday, June 25, 2003
so last night we talked about what makes a person sexy, and it was decided that confidence was at a high point of the list. also, apparently i come off as if i do have confidence, which i find incredibly funny cos i have some of the worst self esteem in the world. it's strange to hear the way others perceive you because it's so different from the way you see yourself. i mean, i would have guessed that i come off as one of low confidence, yet these people are telling me otherwise. granted, they could have just been saying that, but i don't know. it's funny how people think they know you so well and have such a grasp on what you are all about, yet they really have no clue. ha...fuckers...

get bigger everyday...
02:30 a.m. Wednesday, June 25, 2003
i woke up pretty early today, at least for me. i tried to think of something to do, but i'm really bad at that. finally, nicole called and came over. we decided that it would be fun to have dinner and go bowling. well, that fell through, and we called zach, who wanted us to go there. so, we went to this little japanese restaurant and then to the coffee place next door, both very dark places. the coffee place was great cos there was this gorgeous guy working there. i mean, shit! i don't normally like buff guys, but for him, i could make an exception. anyway, we went back to his house and watched minority report. ooo! pat was there too, which was great since i haven't seen him in so long. i love pat! yay! hehehe. ok...off to do something like sleep. ha! bye!

screw titles...
11:23 p.m. Monday, June 23, 2003
reason #5923842934 that futurama is a great show: seeing leonard nimoy (annelise's dad) trying to give a robot the vulcan death grip.

i'm a bitch babe and i'm on fire...
10:23 p.m. Sunday, June 22, 2003
so i've made a decision about my journals. this one will be my main blog, and i will put everyday activities and feelings here. the livejournal will be my naughtier, raunchier, more fully expressive blog...in other words, possibly more interesting. plus, i post pics there. my xanga is just there for whatever the hell i feel like using it for. this way people can choose which level of information that they want to know about me. plus, there will be a few friends only livejournal entries. anyway, today was pretty crappy. i couldn't sleep last night as a result of the alcohol and/or the beginning of my period. then, my mum woke me up early to clean the god damn house for my god damn party. the party blew cos lots of people decided not to show up. the people who were there were great though. after everyone left, i had a slight breakdown. i locked myself in the bathroom for like 4 hours so i could think cos i'm strangely drawn to bathrooms when i'm depressed for some reason. that was a shitty experience (honestly, there was no pun intended there...i noticed it after i wrote it...ha), but i'm not going to elaborate on that. i'm just not happy right now. there are lots of factors adding up to this depression, but i'm not going to list them all here. meh...i'm just being a bitch today.

bad boys...
01:42 a.m. Sunday, June 22, 2003
i slept in until really late today, which was surprising considering i slept so much yesterday. anyway, brian had his grad party today, so i went to that for a few hours. that was fun cos brian kept showing us his bare butt cos alex kept insisting he had a tattoo there. then, emma came to pick me up, and we headed to may's house. not much happened until we got to blum's house. there were lots of us there. i swear, i have never seen anyone drink as much as jordan. he's amazing. i got some great pictures of him too. check those out! the crappy thing was that i got my period whilst there, so no sex for me. that didn't stop virgile from sticking his hands down my pants repeatedly and my bare boobs, and me from sticking my hands all over his crotch repeatedly. there were a lot more people there than i thought would be there. hmmm...me, nicole, diana, emma, virgile, blum, eric, tomas, jordan, jessica, melissa, hyuma, chris, scott, arturo, lowell, mike...i can't think of anyone else. so yeah. that was incredibly fun. i'm going to upload pics now then go to sleep. enjoy!

she works hard for the money...
08:55 p.m. Friday, June 20, 2003
hmmm...so i worked today with emma for some woman who needed help moving. she paid us good money, so i suppose it was worth the hard work and having to wake up early. she was a really funny old lady too. she didn't want me to write "tapes" on one of the boxes with her casettes in them because she thought the movers would think they were porn and go through them. hahaha! she was also pretty sure her ex-husband was out to get her. that was fun. once i got home though, i was so tired. i went right to sleep with the intent of waking up in an hour to call andrew so we could hang out. turns out, i didn't wake up till now. sorry, andrew! i can't believe i slept that much. i have a new phone now cos my mum changed our phone plan to something cheaper or something like that. my number is the same though. in case you were wondering, yes, i do have a livejournal account. here is the link. actually, here is the link. sorry bout that mix up. muhaha! ummm...nothing much else to say really. my party is sunday. i'm still waiting for some people to rsvp. after all that sleep, i'm still tired. blah.

oh yeah, did i mention?
08:27 p.m. Thursday, June 19, 2003
i forgot two things in my last entry about graduation and gradnite. one being that russell's dad is the creepiest man alive, and secondly, i love saurabh. okay. russell's dad was following me around with his camera after graduation until i noticed him laughing at me and got mad. you know that's creepy. then saurabh...i don't think anyone makes me laugh as much as he does. last night he wasn't his usual "anthrax teddy bear self". he was being nice, save for one part where he said his famous line, "see how you laugh when i kill you!" i want to take him with me to college and keep him in a little jar on my desk to entertain me. i can feed him assorted little vegetarian meals and poke him with a tiny stick when he starts getting unruly. doesn't that sound like fun? he's just so funny and entertaining. hahaha!

all the pretty queens and the sluts are dancing...
01:08 p.m. Thursday, June 19, 2003
so tuesday night we went out with zach and his friends. wednesday was spent trying to sleep for most of the day. not only was i really tired, but i wanted to be awake for the rest of the night. so, i went to graduation...and guess what! graduated. that was fun. the speeches were the best i've heard cos they were humorous rather than sappy. how can you go wrong with a speech that quotes zoolander? may, you're awesome! after graduation, nicole and i went to diana's house for a little party after a little confusion with where her stuff was. they had some good food and drinks there, but i had to leave kind of early cos the shirt i was wearing was kind of inappropriate for later that night. i went home to find that my parents were not there. i didn't have any keys with me because, well, i couldn't carry them with me. i ended up climbing through the window in my sister's room. gradnite at disneyland was insanely fun. it was on the way there that i realized john had sent me a little congratulations tezt message and paul had sent me one simply saying "cybersex?". we went on bunches of rides, and then we headed to one of the clubs. dancing was fun even though most of the cute guys had girlfriends. we got our pictures taken by some random guys though. that was actually kind of creepy. the bus ride home seemed really long. everyone around me was sleeping, so i took pictures of that. hahaha! once i got home, i slept. now i'm up again, but methinks i'm going to go back to sleep cos we got home at 7 this morning. i've added new pictures, so check them out!

last dance tonight...
12:56 a.m. Tuesday, June 17, 2003
hmmm...foods and choir finals today. nothing too exciting happened, except that we're done with high school now. tomorrow we have graduation rehearsal. woo hoo! i got to take a nap when i got home, and then it was off to higleys, where devin, blum, kevin, and virgile were performing. there were lots of people there too. zach, annelise, diana, shaun, and i went to the park afterwards, and then we decided to go to diana's house. we played team monopoly, john and i, diana and zach, and shaun and annelise (shaunelise). shaunelise kicked our arses. they left after that cos it was 11, and they had curfews. so, we played clue and went home. pictures at picture trail...there's a new link up above the zonkboard!

it's my party...
06:09 p.m. Sunday, June 15, 2003
today my two cousins and i celebrated our graduation by having a party with our family. i got 915 dollars today...plus some other gifts. shit! hopefully, i'll be able to save it all til college though. anyway, the party went well. there are pictures here. okay...i'm tired, so i'm not going to write too much. see y'all tomorrow!

got my suit damp...
01:11 a.m. Sunday, June 15, 2003
what a rush! i just posted some pics of myself in barely anything to a livejournal private community. that was so much fun! anyway, i got a new digital camera today for my graduation present. my mum and i both cannot save presents until the day that they're supposed to be given. hahaha! it's such a great present. i'm so excited about using it tomorrow at my family graduation party. today was fun. there was a big party at anne's house, so we all ran around in our bathing suits and swam. it was just what the day called for. the weather was perfect too. i wanted to go out with erin tonight, but my mum wanted the house clean. that ruined my plans. grr! oh well...i guess i needed to relax a little anyway. it would have been really fun going though. ooo...and people went to rocky horror! liz was playing frank tonight, and i have such a huge ass crush on her. poo! k...back to cleaning. yeah, i'm still not done. ps...to all you people i don't see at school/don't go to school with/are in college...you're invited to my graduation party next sunday at 12. please let me know if you can come as soon as possible. thanks!

let's get naked...
12:42 a.m. Saturday, June 14, 2003
nothing much happened today until the night time. annelise and i went over to nicole's house in pasadena, where we met up with her and zach. since most of us were hungry, we went to souplantation. much food was eaten! then, diana, emma, and blum joined us. we hung out for a while. annelise left, and we decided we needed to get naked. so, we played a strip game with cards that wasn't strip poker. we changed one of our drinking games. diana, blum, and i all got down to nothing but our panties/boxers. i was uncomfortable holding the pillow in front of them and it was hot, so i didn't really stay behind it as much as i guess i should have. i didn't feel like offending people with my nakedness, but i love being naked. ok...now i'm doing nothing. buh bye!

hit me baby one more time...
05:51 p.m. Friday, June 13, 2003
click me! today was boring. our english presentation went really well. foods was fun. choir was...well...choir was unproductive. i came home and took a nap. now i'm here writing contemplating what the hell to do tonight. maybe somebody will call me so i don't have to think...

give em the old razzle dazzle...
08:38 p.m. Thursday, June 12, 2003
more prom pics! we had our first final today in econ, which turned out to be okay methinks. then, nicole, erin, and i spent third period wandering around. erin scared away the cutest squirrel! he was standing on his hind legs eating some bread or something. it was sooooo cute! ah! ok, so i went to lunch with shaun, dan, and curtis. we went to rubios, which was actually really good. our sociology final went ok i suppose. we presented garbage, and it made me laugh to see peter so excited. he was singing stupid girl before we even began. i don't think i did a very good job on it though. ooo...my fishnets got stuck on my chair today cos it was broken. hahaha! it was so funny! i managed to save both myself and the tights without problems after a few minutes. harv let us out early to get our caps and gowns, which was nice. i wore my ugly cap and danced around the office to cheer up the emma. it's so loose. i like tight clothes, but i guess it would look kind of funny if it was like that. ha. my guitar lesson went well today. i'm working on pink floyd's comfortably numb. kevin thinks i should major in guitar cos i'd supposedly have no problem doing it. yeah right. ha! ok...now i'm off to eat a chocolate chip muffin...yummy! bye! *kisses*

i think i'm angry still...
06:58 p.m. Wednesday, June 11, 2003
hmmm...today. most periods were spent doing absolutely nothing. lunch was spent with band rehearsing o fortuna, whilst steve and i just shook our heads at each other from across the room. it was our last day of regular school. tomorrow we start our finals. it's so exciting. i really love my friends so much. i can't believe that someone would actually hurt and manipulate another person just for their sick enjoyment. that really pisses me off. sorry but i'm being really random and add ish with my writing today. ooo...i woke up this morning to whimpering, and i couldn't find ollie. so, i finally opened the door to the bathroom and out he came. hahaha...why must he always insist on trapping himself in the bathroom? silly dog. meh. okay...now i have to do school stuff. yay! ha! friday five update!

it's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday...
09:31 p.m. Tuesday, June 10, 2003
wow...what a night. i can't tell you how sad i am to have sung in my last concert at the high school. thank you so much, blum and shaun, for coming. you don't know how much that meant to me. i am so touched by your support even though we aren't even that close, well...blum and i. thank you. the concert turned out pretty well too. now i'm just sitting here sobbing cos i'm going to miss singing under mrs. rios. i mean, i can't stand the way she brings politics into everything but the way she conducts moves me so much. she's so emotional and musical. plus, there are these people that i've sung with for so long, some even from elementary school. it's so hard to think that i won't be with them up there anymore. okay...i can't write anymore right now. there's too much on my mind. bye.

i fall down just to give you a thrill...
10:44 p.m. Monday, June 9, 2003
i woke up this morning only to realize that it was incredibly late, so i called up emma to tell her that i wouldn't need a ride to school. well, it turned out that she slept in too, so we both went to school during second period. that was actually really nice. plus, i finally got my yearbook today. yay! i hate hate hate my senior greats picture! ahhhhhh! once i got home, i hung out till nicole, sarah, and erin came over to work on our sociology final. none of us really felt like working so we went to goldsteins, where i taught them about garbage, since we're doing our final on them. yeee haw! after that, i went to the senior awards ceremony which was long, but i'm really glad that i went cos i got to find out a lot of things that i didn't know about people. plus, we got this nifty booklet that says where everyone is going to college and all their awards. ok...off to sleep! ps...go to may's site to see some pics of the weekend...there's one of diana and i licking the sleeping tomas. teehee!

pissing the night away...
01:23 p.m. Sunday, June 8, 2003
wow...it's been a busy weekend so far. yesterday, i woke up early and took all my junk over to erin's house for our crap sale. we actually all made a decent amount of money. plus, shaun didn't know how to rollerblade, but he was trying to show a customer that they still worked. so, i held him up whilst he tried to move. it was hilarious! nicole and annelise stopped by for a little while too. nicole, we sold your candle! teehee! shaun gave me his septerra core video game, so i'm going to try that out later today to see if i like it. hmmm...then, i came home and took a nap...kind of. annelise's party was fun. i was only able to stay for dinner, but it was good food. then, diana and i went to may's party at buca's, where we looked at porn with the waitress and everyone got spilled on. i swear, those drinks were so cold too. it was off to may's house after that, and we watched some movies and played some drinking games. i love how may's mum walks in whilst we're all drunk and thinks everything is alright. ha. i slept on the floor of may's room with tom and diana. this morning, blum, emma, may, and i went to denny's for breakfast. there were so many attractive black guys there. holy shit! anyway, now i'm here typing/blabbering in this thing when i should really just go to sleep cos i'm tired as holy hell. mmmmmmm...sleep. *does a little tired dance* i'm actually feeling really good for being so tired. ha. buh bye!

you don't have to go home...
12:41 a.m. Saturday, June 7, 2003
school was incredibly emotional today. we were served breakfast in the cafeteria, and then we went to the auditorium. a few people performed little things and made speeches. i was in tears a lot of the time. it's so weird thinking that i'm not going to be seeing these people that i see everyday. what a change. anyway, then we went to the assembly. we performed, and i didn't think it sounded good but that could have just been because of where i was standing. then, we had a video by mike winters that was like 40 minutes long, and it was just one of the sweetest things ever. i wasn't in it though, but i guess that's ok cos i'm in the yearbook a lot, although i don't know why. we left after that and hung out till the concert that night. okay...i was seriously blown away. blum's performance was amazing. melody moved me to tears. virgile's performance was seriously one of the coolest things i've ever seen. brendan left me in complete awe of his talent. may was absolutely fabulous too. i loved the show! afterwards, we went to higleys for a bit. then, it was off to le sex shoppe, where i bought a few presents for people. i didn't buy anything for myself though, which has left me a little disappointed. the thing is...i didn't really find anything there that i either didn't already have or couldn't get for free anyway. so, i didn't see much point in spending more money. i can't wait till my mum sees the credit card statement with a purchase from that store on it. hahaha! shit! i actually don't really give a damn. okay...so off to sleep cos tomorrow is going to be a long ass day. nighty night!

how can i keep from singing?
11:23 p.m. Thursday, June 5, 2003
today today...was just another day...where we all went to sing and play. okay? anyway, i don't really remember doing anything in school today, so i'm going to skip that part. i went to my guitar lesson, and it turns out that kevin, my guitar teacher, grew up in stockton. he knew people who went to uop and stuff. so, that was exciting. after that, i had to go to school to do soundcheck stuff cos we're using mics for the performance tomorrow. i think i lost my voice at comedy sportz tonight though. i liked it a lot tonight, and after, shaun and i went to higleys cos neither of us wanted to go home. it's not really school tomorrow anyway, so who cares? okey dokey...

be careful with me...don't trip my wire...
09:21 p.m. Wednesday, June 4, 2003
god my mum is annoying. she's making me buy new senior pictures because i lost the other ones, even though there really isn't any good reason to have them. i still have the big ones. she just wants wallet ones to send to family members with my graduation announcements. plus, i started cleaning my room today, which i would think would be something that would normally get some positive reenforcement, but no. she yells at me about that. it bothers me how mums can really make no sense at all sometimes. other than that, my day was pretty kick back. i decided to take the day off from school to work on party invitations, room cleaning, and graduation announcements. i got a lot done, so i was very proud of myself. later, i went to see my psychologist who started tearing up toward the end of our session because we only have one more after this. then, it was off to school to practice for the senior assembly. i'm really excited cos we actually got work done today. of course, we were supposed to do a sound check in the gym, but the cheerleaders wouldn't let us use it even though it was our assigned time. i was having sucha great day until my mum decided to explode. at least it's almost friday. by the way...our final concert is next tuesday. everyone must come! teehee! ps...graduation party on the 22nd...see last entry for details...it's in the archived section now!